I have had the most awesome day at the private opening of the Centre for Liminal Studies at Broughton Sanctuary in Yorkshire which I’ll do a separate post on, but after a conversation I had there this morning I feel drawn to write about soul connections.
While at the Wyrd Lab last month I chatted with a man called Rich, who I’d never met before in my life, and within minutes we were discussing Twin Flame Soul connections. Neither of us can even remember now how we got on to the subject but it became obvious very early on that our experiences were eerily similar.
Much is written on the internet about Twin Flame Soul connections and 95% of it is bunkum. You will read about “chasers” and “runners” but this has zero to do with spiritual connections and everything to do with abusive relationships. It’s usually just people (mainly women) lying to themselves about men they were deeply in love with but who didn’t feel the same way and dumped them.
When you’ve met your Twin Flame you know about it. It involves an inner ‘knowing’, signs, synchronicities, obsession, intensity, psychic connections and, for me, I also had memories of one of our previous lives. My ex, it has to be said, felt the intensity and obsession but none of the rest. He refused to acknowledge the signs & synchronicities, despite admitting they were present, even after consulting a psychic medium who specialised in Soul connections who told him that we were indeed Soul connected. In addition, he was simply unwilling (not unable) to be vulnerable to the depth and intimacy needed for a Twin Flame relationship. The whole thing scared him witless.
Rich was at the opening event today and we chatted again for over an hour about Twin Flame connections. His relationship ended 7 years ago and he admits he still feels connected to his ex, as do I. We have both tried everything to sever the connection, including chord cutting and burning rituals, but none have worked. It seems that once you have genuinely met your Twin Flame in a lifetime there is no closing the spiritual door, however much you might wish to. So instead we have both chosen to honour this once-in-a-lifetime gift.
My conversation with Rich today was no coincidence, despite neither of us knowing the other was going to be at the event, because despite having no contact with my Twin Flame ex now for about 9 months, and having genuinely moved past the relationship, out the blue all this week he has been strongly on my mind.
It started on Monday with a song playing faintly in my head, a bit like listening to someone playing soft music in another room. As the week has gone on the music has intensified in volume, despite the fact I’ve been really busy and concentrating on other things. I couldn’t understand why I was suddenly hearing one of ‘our songs’ totally out of the blue, but when we were dating it was usually a sign that there was something going on with him.
Then last night I had a lucid dream about him. I rarely remember my dreams, so this was unusual. I woke twice during the night and both times went straight back into the same lucid dream. I knew I was dreaming and tried to make a conscious effort to remember the scenarios playing out around me, which I wrote down when I woke. The most striking thing about the dream is that my ex was crying with grief and requesting comfort. He kept saying over and over “I miss you. I miss you. I miss you”. After waking from the dream this morning, the John Mayer song was playing very loudly in my head and has remained so all day. I actually played it through the car stereo driving home from Yorkshire this afternoon, thinking that if I honoured it by physically listening it might stop playing on a loop in my brain!
It wasn’t until my mind was wandering while driving that a light bulb went off and I understood what this week’s focus on my ex has all been about. I realised that today is the anniversary of his Wife’s death and despite now living down south he will either be physically back in Cumbria to visit her grave or at the very least his consciousness and energy will be here. His grief in my lucid dream from last night now makes sense.
It is not the first lucid dream I have had of him since we broke up, having also had one on 25th March. Very different in substance to last night’s dream but just as vivid and memorable. I don’t know why I dreamt of him on that particular day or the significance of the dream.
I have no idea what’s happening in his life and I don’t want to know. I honour the gift of our Soul connection which has had a profound impact on me in this life. It’s what led me to the IF Crowd, and from there to the Wyrd lab and now to the Centre for Liminal Studies. I have met the most amazing, interesting, vulnerable, open people and that has been such a blessing. It’s also hugely intensified my interest in exploring my intuition and spirituality, both of which have led to Soul growth.
That in this life he has chosen to be cruel, deceitful and cold simply is what it is. That he chose not to honour our Soul contract, or to experience the bliss of a Twin Flame spiritual union, made me sad at the time but he is on his own karmic journey and that will no doubt play out as it should.
What both Rich and I have discovered is that Soul connections genuinely exist, they are based on unconditional love and they cannot be broken. Soul connections exist throughout many lifetimes. None of my friends could understand my saying that despite the abusive way my ex treated me that I had unconditional love for him, but I absolutely do. That doesn’t mean I condone or excuse his appalling behaviour in any way, but I remember at a Soul level our connections from previous lives and choose instead to focus on that.
“The minute I heard my first love story,
I started looking for you, not knowing
how blind that was.Lovers don’t finally meet somewhere,
they’re in each other all along.”Rumi
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